The Rising Australian musician has announced that he is putting music to the side in an open letter on social media.

Australian producer/DJ Swindail has announced an early retirement from the music industry due to mental health concerns. Swindail went to Facebook to post an emotional goodbye to his fanbase.

“Music has given me so many wonderful things – i’ve met lots of fantastic people and have travelled the world. i’ve learnt a lot and have had the chance to teach a bit too. i have performed for thousands of people. lots of amazing stuff i could have only dreamed of doing a few years ago all because of some spare time and an Ableton demo… at some point i started to lose track of all the good stuff and criticized myself more to further the ambition, which is fine if it works but it didn’t. i kept pounding it into my head, so it became a strong self hatred and eventually this super shitty depression i can’t get a break from.”

Last year, Swindail was seeking professional psychiatric help, but was still not able to fully overcome his agonizing depression. Found below is the post in its entirety. We wish Swindail a healthy journey:

hello everyone,
this will be my last post here so might be a read. i’ll keep it as brief as i can:

music has given me so many wonderful things – i’ve met lots of fantastic people and have travelled the world. i’ve learnt a lot and have had the chance to teach a bit too. i have performed for thousands of people. lots of amazing stuff i could have only dreamed of doing a few years ago all because of some spare time and an ableton demo… at some point i started to lose track of all the good stuff. criticised myself more to further the ambition, which is fine if it works but it didn’t. i kept pounding it into my head, so it became a strong self hatred and eventually this super shitty depression i can’t get a break from.

i kinda posted about this several months ago in the hopes of forcing myself to be more open about it – looking back, i only touched it on surface level out of habit. i’ve downplayed it massively, not just here but continually with close friends and family. i can say without a doubt i’m the worst i’ve ever been mentally right now. i’ve lost interest in virtually everything (even making music brings me no joy now) and i spent a big chunk of 2017 wishing i was dead, having tried several times.

early last year i started seeking professional help but even after opening up somewhat to counsellors and psychiatrists i’d still beat myself up in the same way. started drinking and smoking a lot more too as a form of escapism but that would ultimately make things even worse. like it’s been a downhill run for a fuckin minute. i’ll always be making music in one way or another, but i think putting the brakes on and starting over might bring about some much needed positive change for me.

swindail is this projection of sorts, like my best qualities / ideal self but at this point it’s a facade – i can’t eat cheesecake and smile ear to ear while i’m wasting away mentally. i feel like i’ve got something to give and it’ll never happen if i keep dragging myself like this.

so with that, i will no longer be making music as swindail as of today.

thank you for all your support, it has been my entire world. i hope this makes sense and even encourages some of you to speak on a personal struggle if need be. i trust your 2018 will see happiness and i’ll see you soon.

signing out
sid